A place of compasion and love for life I wonder why I am at a space where I feel unlovable.
Do you really know my sick and twisted thoughts? Do you really know my deep down fears? Do you really know every secret I hold inside of myself? Do you know every insecurity I have? I am so lost in myself. I am so confused of who I am. I hold it all in cause I know that if you really know who I am than you will not like or accept me. I feel so alone and so different from the rest of the world. I feel so isolated from the human race.
Some say GOD. Some say be who you are. Some say meditate. Some say......
AAAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGG.................................
So alone
reaching out to god and being shown
that I am lovable in spite of my self
allowing others to see my shelf
where I hide
my inner stuff
cause I only want you to see my fluff
the parts that I think you want to know
I am terrified to show
you me
cause than you will see
the good the bad and the ugly
I love this! You speak words of wisdom. i never knew you had a prolific side too! Keep on keepin on
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we like it raw! show it all!
ReplyDeleteI think a lot of us feel this way about ourselves. Something in us that grew up feeling unlovable or rotten inside. The only "problem" with being intelligent and discovering the self is that every understanding raises more questions and complications. There is a beauty in self-discovery, despite the discomfort. Better to be aware than blind, right?
ReplyDeleteGod loves us as we are. He is crazy about you. Do you think you are somehow more sinful-more dirty or undeserving than the next. We all have fallen short but God left the 99 to find the 1. You are worthy of love and Grace my friend. You are worthy.
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